I am still (mostly) going strong in the world of health and exercise. I definitely suffer from setbacks, especially when I go nuts one week a month...ugh.
But honestly? I feel like I am doing soooo much better than I have ever done before. First of all, I love, love cooking which always helps one to eat better. Secondly, I get the balance act that is calorie counting. Yes, I am a counter for the most part. It just works...and it's really the most fail-proof way to lose weight.
For instance: Today, I decided to have two cookies instead of lunch. Healthy? Nope. However, knowing that I'm going to do this makes me schedule a very light dinner and a very, very healthy breakfast to start the next day better. I can't suppress my cravings - if I do that, the binge is much worse. Now, eating two cookies for lunch made me tired, cranky, and also made me have a sugar crash. All of this sucks, but I don't do this every single day. In fact, it's only the second time I've done this since starting my "new way" of life.
Another thing: I really hate soda. In fact, I went a very long time without any. Then, I started having one a week. Then, I cut it out completely again. However, ever since I started cutting back on sugar, I find myself reaching for that diet pop a bit too often. Maybe 3 or 4 times a week, but still...that's a lot more than before. It really does help me curb cravings, and I've gotten used to the taste. I am not saying this is healthy food - it's gross chemicals. But, it works for me right now and I do plan on cutting it out completely once I'm a bit more stable in the food craving department.
I'm doing cardio about 5x a week, and all the other things that make me happy. All in all, I'm feeling a-ok. That is all.
This week has been very, very hard as far as cravings and motivation go. Ugh...
I am trying to tell myself, over and over and OVER again, that this is going to be a long journey, and I cannot give up just because the results aren't immediate. This is really hard to do when you're hungry all the flippin' time.
Luckily it's Thursday, and I think it's always at this point during the week when I feel extra grumpy. I've been working out all week, and it means one more day of cardio...which is a relief. Cardio is very hard for me, especially since I am really trying to push myself to keep going even when I don't want to. I don't mind strength training, yoga, etc. It's that damn treadmill/bike that I dread. However, I always feel extra great when I'm finished - 30 minutes of hell a day isn't really so bad when you look at the big picture.
Also, when you are used to eatings whenever and whatever for months and months, cutting back feels like deprivation. Even though my mind knows it's getting enough food, it's really hard to convince my body that this is true. I am so very hungry! However, I know it's just the habit that I'm reacting to. Hopefully my body gets used to eating less soon, because I can be kind of an asshole when I'm hungry, haha.
Overall, I have definitely seen results - this is something I really need to remember. I also need to remember that once I reach my goal, it's a matter of upkeep after that which is so much easier than working your ass off to get the pounds off in the first place. Upkeep is all about exercising semi-regularly and continuing to eat well, which feels amazing so I'm not too worried about that part. I love, love cooking more than ever, and healthy meals are so delicious. No worries on that front!
Ok, that title is a little dramatic, but I had quite a food-full weekend.
After almost 3 weeks of doing super awesome (a cookie here, some chocolate there...but all in moderation!), we went home for Alex's graduation party. And while I didn't eat A TON, I definitely felt super bloated after a veggie burger topped w/all the fixin's, homemade mac and cheese, tortellini pasta salad, and TWO PIECES OF CAKE.
Totally not being hard on myself, because it's not worth it. I enjoyed a lovely day of eating delicious food, and that's that. This is going to happen, because I am human. Aaaand...if I don't have an "off" day once in awhile, I will lose my mind.
There was also beer, margaritas, and more beer involved. Oh well.
I have been a little scatter-brained as of late. I have so many ideas, but I can't focus long enough to get anything done. :sigh: Summertime always gets me a little antsy.
I finally took the plunge and have been applying to jobs everywhere. Specifically, I am looking in Toronto. Canada is sooooo very appealing to me - free healthcare? Close to free post-grad education? Yes, please! I've also been looking East and West. Alex will be doing the same now that he's officially graduated. Now we just wait...
I've been running/biking just about every day, and have seen some results. It's a slow process, but I feel so strong. That along with yoga and eating really well (minus a scoop of ice cream or margarita here and there...) has really helped me focus more, but not yet enough to settle the rest of me down.
On a funny note, I started re-watching The L Word on Netflix last week, and now I'm addicted...I can't stop watching! Ugh...on top of this, Alex and I just started watching The Sopranos from Season 1, disc 1. Yes, this is my first time ever seeing the show. Yes, I am already in love with it and we are only 9 episodes in. Awesomeness.
Tonight included that one or two scoops of ice cream as well as pizza (hey, it's a holiday!), so I extra sugar'd up. Yipes!
So, I'm doing pretty well over here. My dad is healthy, and my other blog is going pretty great - slowly but surely.
Over the last year, I've realized how much being creative means to me. I'm still not 100% sure what I mean by this, but I really love creating. This past year has been so great, learning how to really cook and bake. I am still a novice in my opinion, but it's been so much fun learning that this is a passion I never really tapped into. Sure, I have always cooked and baked, but not to this extent. Now, I search out recipes that use ingredients I've never worked with, or have never used together. For example, I am making a mint and edamame "pate" that you spread on whole grain bread, and I could not be more excited. Mint is a new herb to me (besides mint in chocolate), so I can't wait to taste how these two ingredients work together.
Will I ever own a restaurant? Probably not, but I've really been considering culinary school for vegetarian cooking or becoming a pastry chef. I tried to get a small job at a bakery, but the hours did not work out with my schedule last semester.
I am excited to start up my vintage/thrifted etsy store. I am mostly starting to collect shoes and dresses that I love but don't fit me, but like I've said before, I want a good amount before I start a page.
My blog focuses mostly on my food and my clothes. However, I'm looking forward to really sprucing it up, polishing my writing, and taking more pictures. It's still in the beginning stages, and I'm learning slowly.
I haven't fostered in awhile, and it's mostly for selfish reasons. I had a really hard time saying goodbye to Cooper, and realized that it was getting harder rather than easier to say goodbye to these pups. I am sure we will foster again soon regardless, but I just wanted a break.
No pictures in this post, but what are you gonna do? I'm all picture'd out.